While I wait on things to process at CHILI, I thought I would blog a little bit.

Caution: There might be rambling and an incoherent train of thought.

Prayer... conversations with God, communicating with the Creator and the One who knows you best and knows the plan for your life. Prayer...

There are a few things that I am dying to know from God right now. It is amazing how I can unashamedly approach God and ask for these answers. How? ... How can a little girl, full of mistakes and screw-ups and horrible thoughts, selfish thoughts, that is sometimes deliberately disobedient, how can I even consider asking the Heavenly Father for certain things? Why would He listen to someone that consistently hurts Him and even more so answer their deepest questions?

I already knew the answer from growing up in the church and being involved for the last 23 years. But the other day, I felt the need to look up these verses and claim them... to re-confirm these truths.

Romans 8:16-17
¹⁶ The Spirit Himself testifies together with our spirit that we are God's children, ¹⁷ and if children, also heirs —heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ—seeing that we suffer with Him so that we may also be glorified with Him.

Ephesians 3:11-12
¹¹ This is according to the purpose of the ages, which He made in the Messiah, Jesus our Lord, ¹² in whom we have boldness, access, and confidence through faith in Him.

So we, adopted children and followers of Christ, can be bold enough to approach God and...

Matthew 7:7-8
⁷ "Keep asking, and it will be given to you. Keep searching, and you will find. Keep knocking, and the door will be opened to you. ⁸ For everyone who asks receives, and the one who searches finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

So I am begging... pleading... painfully and probably annoying continually asking God my questions. I am searching for the answer... think Indiana Jones. I will admit that I am a little afraid that I might, like Indiana Jones, fall into traps and have arrows fly by my head... I might not get the answer that I want. But what if the answer happens to be what I'm hoping for? What if I find that ancient treasure? And I'm knocking, beating, pounding my fist again the door. Think Lord of the Rings: Orcs trying to get into Hornburg in Helm's Deep by slamming massive trees into the gates/doors of the place. Yeah... I'm knocking.


"Oh, Lord. I want to know what You have planned for me. Tell me. I beg."

Got a Funny Feeling...

After Today - Sanctus Real

After today I'll get me out of this place
Into the world so I can set a new pace
Seems I'm on my own from here
Vision doesn't seem so clear
Won't You lay me in Your hands of grace

I've got a funny feeling that I'm gonna go away
Gonna face my future, gonna try to make the grade
I've got a ways to go from here and vision doesn't seem so clear
But praise God He's got a plan and understanding isn't my place

After today I'm gonna come face to face
With a new world who knows I'm feeling this way
I've got a ways to go from here
I'm gonna overcome these fears
Still I'm gonna need Your hands of grace

I'll be a bigger man...
I'll pray a bigger prayer...
I'll dream a bigger dream...for today.

Get Up And Go!

My mind is racing.... racing through imaginary thoughts of travel, of new places and experiences and sights. I am dying to get up and go somewhere.

(A) I want to take a roadtrip out west again in the next five years. I am would love to see how the American landscape changes so suddenly from one beautiful climate scheme to the next. And to be in California again where the mountains and gorgeous Pacific ocean are side by side (not to mention numerous attractions).

(B) Tropical destinations. Hawaii. South Florida. Any unknown beach, actually. Breath-taking sunsets. Warm water. Sand. New sights and smells.

(C) The mountains.

(D) Ireland. Scotland. England.

(E) Australia, the land down under.

(F) Africa.

So many places! So much to explore! So many new faces to see and people to meet!

Let's go! Let's go now! I am ready! Who is with me??