Tricky Business

I am beginning to run into some tricky stuff. Can I be honest for a second? So there is not a ring on my left ring finger, right? But there is a hope of one, right? There is also a new position that I started in January. And my boss told me about a government position that is open... this is the same boss that got me out of the NDBC contract mess before it got super ugly. I don't think that him bringing me into another room this morning and telling me to check USAjobs.gov was the same kind of persuading that he did in late December. He is just looking out for my future, even if that means that he loses me as an employee... which is respectable, and I highly appreciate it.

The tricky part comes in here -- A government position is a good thing. It is a secure job. It entails travel, like on a ship out to sea for 1-2 month chunks (4-5 months a year). Travel pay is good, but a it is a cut in pay to what I am making now. But yet, I'll be working for my nappy government. You know, the one that has no clue to run this country and continues to bring the US of A further into decline in many various ways. I would be doing the same thing that I am doing now, but it would be a 3-4 month job as opposed to a job every 3-4 weeks. Yikes, that is a long project. But by taking a government position and taking a cut in pay, the benefits arise by putting in time. A promotion is guaranteed in a year with another promotion 1-2 years after that. Promotion = money and more time off. Agreeing to such a position means that you are in it for the long haul. I don't think it would be a good thing to take a goverment position and then (potentially) move away and leave the position in a year or so. That could set up red flags for any future government positions that I might apply to.

So do I stay where I am? Stay a contractor making decent money? Waiting on things to become more settled and my future to become more clear? Or do I take on another job, travel, less pay, and stable my future apart from the hope of more relationship wise? There is a give and take option here. Give up a stable job, promotion schedule, and travel? Or push back my wants and hopes to a later date, potentially leading a decline in my FRS relationship?

There was and is a reason that God designed men to be the head of the household. Not that women cannot hold their weight and contribute in great ways to science and other technical fields. (I do take pride that I can hang tight with the men that I have and currently do work with... probably not a good thing.) But being a women and having to sort out such matters and decisions, life would be so much more simple if I wasn't the one in charge of decision making. Wait a second!! It is not my place to decide at all..... crap! Please pray for guidance on this matter. No matter what promotion or what opportunity I pass down, may it be what God wants.... (sigh). Prayer needed.