Thursday, January 19, 2012

Mercy to Replace Stupidity?

Is it crazy to pray for a little betta? Is is crazy to ask for the same type of faith that the bleeding woman did and the man with the sick child had? ... You know, it was the kind of faith that pleased Jesus and that healed them or their loved one. Is it crazy to sit on the floor and plead for the healing of my fish?

(Probably so, but God is in control of all things. And He does care for us and feels our pain.)

I put way, way too much AquaSafe chemicals into my last betta's water exchange bowl. Granted I did not do a complete water change, but apparently the ammonia levels have been sky-rocket high recently... so much so that my favorite, bright yellow betta has been sunk to the bottom of the bowl for the past 3-4 days. I noticed that he was acting weird a few days ago; he was not joyfully swimming to my finger but was hiding in his barrels-ornament. Odd, but I went on with my busy life. It caught my attention again tonight, and I ran to my computer to google, "Betta sinks to the bottom." Bad stuff popped up in the search, and people commented how their healthy betta was sinking head first to the bottom of the bowl and not eating... same symptoms. Their experience was that death was near, and not much could be done about it. So people, I have put the death sentence on my favorite, little guy. This is the betta that Frederick bought for me and fought so hard to get just from my response through a text message, "Ooo." So this fish means more than his pretty, joyful, bright and colorful personality and appearance. He reminds me of Frederick.

Dang, this is a sad one. I have never cried over a fish before, and this one already has me in tears with the thought of his passing. So can I selfishly ask for prayers for healing... total healing, so Liko can be back to his flittery-self? Prayers for mercy on this little fellow for my stupid and ignorant actions? And prayers for faith, as well.

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